Falling Slowly

It was a very interesting weekend. It's not that I did so very many things, but I did get out some and also, I had a lot of time to think. It was just a weekend full of moments, small and personally notable.

I worked on my house today (Sunday). While I was in Lowes picking out supplies for my projects, I realized just how often I'm going to be doing this for several years. Puportedly, I finished my house last year when I moved in, but yet it's a work in progress. There is always something more that I could be doing. But knowing how I am about my house, it's a labor of love.

Saturday I helped Joia make Gumbo Z'herbs for Andre. Deciding to make it was one of those spur of the moment choices, brought on by finding the recipe in a cookbook while wandering the bookstore. And believe me, making that soup was no easy task. There was more chopping and prepping than anything I've made in a long time (and I made Thai curry paste a couple weeks ago). But helping her with this task, this spontaneous outpouring of culinary affection, made me once again realize just how important it is to have people around you who truly care and who would go that far for you. Friends, lovers, family, - whoever you choose to share your life with. They should all be willing (and eager) to truly give of themselves and we should be the same.

Friday night I shared a good kiss with a relatively new friend. (I rate it good, as opposed to great, due to the brevity). And as I walked to my car contemplating the kiss and the conversation that preceeded it, I was struck with a familiar bittersweet feeling. Once again, I'm dealing with a man I like. That is neither an endorsement nor complaint. It is just a common occurrence for me to like men, I think more than most women do. I should clarify that by like, I don't mean sex (although I highly enjoy that). I just mean that I like men, that I enjoy their straightforward nature and general ineptitude at sentimentality. I like watching the processes their minds go through (though I will never understand them) and the things they choose to verbalize versus what they don't say. I'll freely admit that these things are completely frustrating on a man I'm in a relationship with, but on those who aren't my man, it's fascinating. Anyway, I had been kind of down on men lately, so it was a pleasure to remember how much I generally enjoy the male half of our species.

So that's pretty much it. My weekend summed up in highlight form. It's my own personal cliff notes. LOL. So, that'll do for now. Good night.