Will they reminisce over you?

So I realized today that there is nothing, or should I say nobody, for me in the past. Truly, I have known some amazing men (and a few not so wonderful) but whatever their high points may have been, there is no need for me to go back there. I, like many people, have the habit of wondering "what if". But the thing about that is, why have I spent so much time on what might have been, instead of what could be? So, here today I need to make a pledge to myself to give up attempting to shop in my past and start trying to invest in my future.

And it's not just me either. I know some people who do the same thing, and who need to avow to their willingness to move on. Don't worry I'm not going to call you out. These wonderful people cannot get their own pasts the heck out of the way to see the future. I know how much easier said than done that is, but the past exists there for a reason, to be where we learn from. The example of what hasn't worked is supposed to serve us to not make the same mistakes repeatedly.

For all of us I say, know your own worth, believe in the person that you have become and don't set yourself up for grief. Remember that you are a good person and that you do deserve great things. Also keep in mind that sometimes it is your fault, that you can screw up and learn how to dust off your pride and apologize, honestly.

I said all of that to come back around to, maybe there is a person in my past who was right for me ... then. But I'm not that same person and I doubt that they are either. So casting about in my yesteryear to find that person who could've been the one is absurd. I should leave my memories where they are and look around in my real world.

There's no guarantee that what I want is out here either, but that's what hope is about. And that's why I call it the upswing. Hey you can only go so far down, before you have to bounce way back up.

Thanks for the Love,
AKIP